3rd day back diagnosis

So it's my third day back on the job - what I've noticed is that I've completely lost my confidence and don't feel like I can do my job properly.  I've been asked to attend a ministerial campaign on Friday and in my mind I was thinking of ways that I can get out of it.  It's times like these that I really appreciate having the excuse of a baby and a 4 year old.  I was also asked to present the orientation certificates and I stuttered my way out of that.  I feel like I can't get in front of people or speak to anybody.  It's horrible!

I've always been a shy person, but not majorly.  I've always managed to get past my shyness enough to make a few friends, or the odd speech or so.  But now I feel as though I just can't do it and it sucks.

I think I care too much about what others think of me.  Like even today I was having my standard run of the mill meeting with a manager and every moment I was wondering if what I was saying was impressing her or my colleague who was also in the room.

One good thing is though that through all of the crap that I've been through in my job I now have the experience and wisdom to know that these feelings will pass and they will make me a better stronger person.  But for now, I better go dig out that EAP number :)